My middle name means The Substitute

Hey there... For most of you out there you might have known about my other name but I'm here to right about my middle name: James.. It means the Supplanter.... The Substitute.. And in this tale, I bear that meaning quite well

Recently I've became close to a person... For me it's close XD. The person, let's call her/him S. S is a nice friend. However, it started when S's friend left for another school... I could positively say that they were close. REALLY CLOSE XD.. And I accpeted S's friendliness although it has its own rocky start.. In time we came close to each other but then in every time S would compare me to that old friend... Always comparing me with him.. I guess there's no telling that I'm actually sad about that XD

S is somewhat oblivious to his surrounding although S denies it. I guess that's why S could never tell when I was hurt or sad. Hmm.. But my middle name is James so I guess all along I was always meant to be just the Substitute XD. I wish I could change my destiny... I Don't Wanna be the Substitute... I want to be the real deal to you. I guess I was wrong..

:I won't tell S this but it does seems stupid of me to be jealous of this fact.... S  and that old friend had been friends since they were young but I've only known S for about 3 years.....

In the end I would just be a forgotten memory again. Another substitute till I'm no longer needed. I should be grateful to have a friend like S. I will be S's loyal friend till the time comes when I'm no longer needed as S's friend XD

Meow I love this drawing... no relevance to post